The concept to explain something you really have no idea how you know is

irrevericable I see and I feel but do I know?

What is this force that draws me deeper into you?

Are you ending it before it even begins?

how are you ever suposed to know what your child will be like if you take there life now

or cut down a tree before it starts to grow

Or cut off the bud of a brand new flower?

Or give a puppy away because he pees the house before you teach him.

Things in life arent ment to be easy if they were we wouldnt learn anything

become stronger or smarter, its ment to be a challenge!

We have to face those trials and overcome them.

and move on to face the better tomorrows that are in store.

Hello realization number a million

So I was talking to my friend today and I actually described myself in a shell(as I said)

Im afraid of loosing those who I care for and Im afraid of commitment, I hate change but desire it, maybe so I can fight it? I Love who I should not and put a-side who I take for granted .

I tend to get myself into situations that only end up breaking my heart?

Can a person Really change because Of someone they Love?

I know I can only change my self but do I wanta change I like being excepted for who I am and for once letting go knowing that I dont have to be the mom or in charge because no one else can grow up. Memories permenently etched in my mind kinda make it hard to move on I cant seem to let go of the past maybe I said that because I cant let go, not him.....I kinda think that if I feel like blaming someone its probably me that has the problem? well at least Im to the point of admitting Im pretty screwed up and yet maybe I like people feelin sorry for me? No I dont it makes me feel like a pethetic looser..... not one of my immediate goals in life He changed for me will it last?

Ive got some straightning out as fergie says.....big girls dont cry!

What does it feel like to die?

I could of been dead but here I am what is my purpose? what is this mission Im supposed to fill?

Can those ones in my past make it with out me....the answer is yes they made it with out you before I showed up but how they make now that is the mystery?

The question that comes to mind at least once a day what is Love Do I even Know?

And Why in the world does everyone think they were ment to meet me so they can help and or fix me.........FOR THE THOUSANDTH TIME I DONT NEED ANYBODY!

So can everyone just please leave me alone!